December 2025
In My Defense
Chamber indie folk with a sacred aftertaste
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Lyrics
Modern time pressures
Like an impossible dance
It terrors my thinking
I got sympathy for Lance
The little joy
From little niggle work
Makes me eager for more
And eager to score.
But in my defense
And to my surprise
When it makes no sense
When it's not by design
I'll praise the Lord
Most high
The ties that bind
You and me
Keep us blind
to a certain degree
You carry my burden
You carry my soul
I’m fraying your nerves
I wonder when you go
But in my defense
And to my surprise
When it makes no sense
When it's not by design
I'll praise the Lord
most high
But in my defense
and to my surprise
you too make no sense
and it's not by design
I’ll praise the Lord
He requires more than I can afford
And I’ll praise the Lord
With my reluctant love and my broken work
I’ll praise the Lord
Raise me above all I had to distort
And I'll praise the Lord
I'll praise the Lord
most high
The story behind the song
This song took years to finish. “I often got stuck,” says Tonneau. “The melody or words would circle around for months, sometimes years, before they finally landed.” Each verse carries traces of different times and moods — the ambition of work, the tension of relationships, the quiet surprise of acceptance. It’s not a song of certainty, but one of hesitant rejoicing.
Recorded by Tonneau. Mixed and Mastered by René de Vries
Artwork by Marianne Zeldenrust, @mar.heeftzeldenrust
What the press wrote
- The Other Side Reviews
Softer, simpler, and somewhat stripped-back... barebones vocals, gliding violin and steady guitar
Read the review - Popfad Music Blog USA
A masterclass in vulnerability
Read the review - SongWeb USA
Not a song that demands attention but earns it
Read the review - Tune Oasis India
Maps the Beauty of Unfinished Things
Read the review - Apollo Sharp India
deep baritone
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- Indie O'Clock Brazil, Portuguese
Folk lindo que nos envolve
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